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Quick note

2008-05-26T06:02:36Z

I've just been locked out of my email for the second time in a week, and the password recovery isn't working this time, so 1.) I have a new email address, and 2.) I lost everyone else's. Please send me a message with your email, or requesting my new one!

Also, to whoever is messing with my various random accounts, KNOCK IT OFF.

Just Playing with Lyrics

2007-11-01T03:24:21Z

Little girl
With your oversized veil
A yard of silk
Hides your plastic nails
Your plushie prince hops in the door
With glass eyes shining in your dime-store ring
He'll give you everything

You're waiting for your story day
Years go by, dreams fade to gray
But somewhere tucked away

Is your fairytale ending
With the flowers and silk roses and
All your dreams of princes
They feel so right
They're never true
Watch your other half abandon you
Again
But this isn't how it will always end

Little boy
With your hobby horse
And your dragon-slaying
Wooden sword
You're invincible inside your tin
Your princess calls from within your dream
She'll give you everything

You're waiting for your story day
Years go by, dreams fade to gray
But somewhere tucked away

Is your fairytale ending
With the tower and the girl and
All your dreams of princesess
They feel so right
They're never true
Watch your other half abandon you
Again
But this isn't how it will always end

.... Yeah, it's not done, but copyright me (D. Kuchera) 10-31-07 and blah blah. It's still a mess and clunky in parts and unfinished, but I'm working on it. D:

***

Edit: Two more added via a request from Steven. These are both old, from 2003, so don't tell me they suck, I already know that. xD Again, both are copyright of Danita Kuchera.

Kerosene

Lighting jars of kerosene
To smash upon the bloody streets
Amidst these children's empty screams
For monthers who don't come
Why we play these games of death
Is something that I'll never grasp
To create worlds from rape and theft
And death and blood and bones

(C)
These
Are the times
When up is down and right is wrong
How
Will you Stand
When gravity is gone
These
Are the days
To cling fast to all you believe
And stand
Through the storm
And never surrender your dreams

Lighting jars of kerosene
To glimpse the darkened, empty streets
And hear the echoes of the screams
For those who never came
Life's worth so much more than this
Souls aren't a currency for trade
What gives the right to second guess
Life's value when it's not our own

(C)

And though I'm one small voice
Standing through the storm
I'll never stop screaming
I'll never stop screaming
I'll never stop screaming
Until someone hears me

(C) x2

Can you hear me?

Annnnnd the other one ~ this is something I actually wrote for my youngest sister when she was about 6.

Larina

Swinging at the park
Down the street, round the bend
Thinking it would be so welcome to be free of life again
'Cause you grow up
And you grow away
And you learn as you live
And you fight for the day
That you'll be all you wanted and you'll find all your dreams
But you come to these points
Where you long just to see

(C)
A minute in time through the eyes of a child
A second of freedom in her dandelion's flight
A moment of joy as she dances and sings
A shadow of hope in her vibrant dreams

So I'm swinging at the park
Down the street, round the bend
Watching her float on her sunbeams again
Soon she'll grow up
And she'll grow away
And I'll long for her song
And I'll beg her to stay
She'll become all she's wanted and she'll find all her dreams
But she'll come to a point
When she longs just to see

(C)

She's the closest to an angel that I've ever been
And I'd die just to spare her the heartache life spends
But I know she'll live on through whatever it brings
And I'll wait in the park for her under the swings

(C)

And we'll sit there for hours and share all our tears
Our laughter and triumphs, our nightmares and fears
And we'll swing at the park down the street, round the bend
Watching always for angels to dance on sunbeams again

Stupid Girl

2007-10-25T00:50:49Z

Something happened a few days ago that I've been thinking about randomly since it happened. I was talking to a friend on AIM, and he mentioned that it had been a tough week. Apparently, one of his friends, who I will call Bob, who I sort of have met once or twice kinda, but don't really know, has a girlfriend. Let's call her Jane.

Well, had a girlfriend.

Apparently, Jane met some fairly well-known personality on My-Space. Or he found her, I wasn't particularly clear on which. Anyways, Jane has been engaged to or at least heavily involved with Bob for several years, I guess everyone who knew them fairly well expected them to get married soon. This dude Jane met on Myspace had some kind of a show or tour or something that went through the town she lives in. Long story short, in spite of several people begging her not to, Jane eventually ends up in his hotel that night, after dragging Bob to see this show. Oh yeah, Jane knew this was going to happen, by the way, because she made Bob take his own car.

...

Seriously, WTF. WTF, stupid, stupid girl. How's it going to feel 10 years from now when you realized that you traded Mr. Perfect, and probably your perfect life with him, for a one night stand with some half-famous guy who will deny ever having met you? Is your job at the 7-11 that you still have when you're 35 because no one in a 100 mile radius will touch someone as shallow as you going to be fun? Will it be worth the 10 minutes of I-Slept-With-A-Sort-Of-Celebrity? Yeah, you probably think that it was worth it now, that that's what you wanted, but you're young enough TO BE HIS DAUGHTER. YOU'RE BARELY NOT CONSIDERED LEGAL JAILBAIT ANYMORE. YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT.

YOU ARE A STUPID, STUPID GIRL.

***

Anyways, I'm tired but not too upset. Got 5 days at work this week, so hopefully I'll have a little extra cash to go to the Brazilian steakhouse place when we go to Raleigh in December. Why are we going to Raleigh in December, you ask? BECAUSE THE TRANS-SIBERIAN ORCHESTRA WILL BE IN RALEIGH IN DECEMBER. Oh yes. Win. The tickets are pricey but it will totally be worth it. ^-^

Oh yes, and if you are EVER, EVER, EVER, going in or even near Raleigh, please, do yourself a favor and go to Rio Churrascaria. (The Brazilian Steakhouse I mentioned above.) IT IS THE MOST AMAZING DINNER EVER. MMmmmmmMMmmmMMMmm. I rank it right up there with Bizen's, and if you've ever heard me go on about restaraunts before, you know that Bizen's is right at the top of my list. Rio Churrascaria is absolutely amazing. There are not words to describe how awesome of a place to go eat dinner this is. It was completely worth the $25. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

Drawinggggggggggggggggggggg

2007-10-19T02:15:34Z

Yeah, so Megatokyo is finally getting interesting again, and I kinda wanted to do a fanart sketchy thing. So! Piroko. ^^ This is already an outdated picture, but I didn't want to scan it AGAIN tonight. I'll put up the lineart when I'm done inking it. ^^

And yes, I AM LISTENING TO DRUNKEN DANISH PIRATE TECHNO. Check it out at http://www.jensviking.dk ^^ Please note that the translated lyrics for this particular song are not appropriate for younger audiences, if you actually feel like going to the effort of finding out what he's singing. >_> (This is the song ~ http://www.jensviking.dk/sounds/mitnavner.mp3)

Mmmmmyeah

2007-10-08T19:24:22Z

So I hate my job. (What else is new.)

Finally had that talk with Stu that I've been meaning to have for the last 5 months; it actually went fairly well. o_o

Can't save money, but at least I'm caught up on bills, and there's food in the kitchen. (Somewhere)

Although, I think I'm about to quit WoW. I can't find time to log in more than an hour or two a day, if even that anymore. I went like, 4 days without logging in this week, and I kind of enjoyed it. I'm tired of the drama, I'm tired of the untold hours behind the scenes that no one knows exist, the demands on time I don't have, and I'm tired of passing on stuff for people only to watch them happily walk away to ILL or another server like they deserved to take their purples and leave everyone else behind. The concept of being an unscripted feeder guild for ILL isn't a particularly enjoyable idea anyways. So, to Blizzard, good riddance. So long, and thanks for all the fish.

Problem is that there is NOTHING else to do here. Console games = $50 I don't have, Movies = $10 I don't have, driving to Fayetteville for dinner = $30 I don't have. GRR.

Honestly, I should probably draw more. Like, really. I keep having cool ideas for content and then totally botching the presentation. Bleh.

Mom -still- hasn't sent me the tax stuff I need. So yeah, probably no school for me again this spring. But, miracle of miracles, when I turn 24 next summer, I DON'T NEED THEIR TAX INFO ANYMORE. I CAN GO TO SCHOOL.

YUS.

Take that, life. I'm finally going to start winning. I C WUT U DID THAR, and I'm not falling for it. What's another 9 months when I've already been waiting 5 years? The tunnel has an end, and there's a sun hanging out right outside of it.

It feels good to realize that I've been awake for six hours, and I'm still smiling.

: )

Urgles @ Web Coding

2007-06-22T16:02:25Z

/angry

Okso, WoW servers have been down for a few hours now. I decided I'd try to get something remotely useful done, and since I was having problems with Guildportal randomly deleting my posts as I made them (AGAIN) I gave up and attempted to move the DKP lists off-site before I inadvertently destroyed them all.

/shoots Guildportal

2 hours later, I'm banging my head against the wall. Whoever's idea it was that I should try to teach myself CSS is anyone's guess, because it sure as heck couldn't have been mine. >.< I don't usually decide to randomly engage in activities that ultimately make me want to throw my computer out the window.

Daz hasn't been around for about 3 weeks now, so I'm subsequently afraid to try to upload anything to his host. Angelfire can die in a fire, the banners are wrecking what little code I manage to get right, and I have nowhere else to check and make sure that it's not just my computer that hates my style sheets.

I've been using the tutorials at W3schools.com, but they seem to assume that the user reading their directions has had some other exposure to CSS, and subsequently does not need every tiny nuance of their directives explained. I must fall into that 0.0005% of wanna-be web designers who is too stupid to know what the XHTML replacement for the 'font' element is. >.< I registered a username on their forums to ask a few things regarding how to turn all the base text on my webpage that -isn't- in a set of paragraph tags white, but apparently it will take them at least 24 hours to validate that I'm not a spammer, and give me posting access. Of course, by tomorrow, I will have either figured it out myself, or forgotten what my question was.

Die, internet.

WOOOOOOOOOT

2006-12-20T23:35:08Z

I LOVE MY NEW HAIRCUT OMGOSH

(Sorry for the horrible webcam pic, I had to use something.) XD

Ah ha ha ha ha ha

2006-12-12T22:14:01Z

Most. Hilarious. Thing. EVAR.

All is not as it seems, you have been warned! >:D

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/113664459

HELP ME CUT MY HAIR kthx

2006-12-06T07:15:52Z

I am going to cut my hair. I have medium-to-lightish brown hair that is straighter than a ruler, and is on the heavy side of a medium weight. It's relatively thick, although it's not as bad as my sister's is. I will try to get a current picture of me up here in the next day or two.

I want to grow it out.

I like extreme layers, but am willing to try something new if it is cool, cute, or sexy. Mainly I just want to grow it long-ish again, and want it to actually look nice this time around. Please remember that my hair is allergic to curling or waving, and protests it vehemently. I dislike complete color changes, although I am open to and occasionally enjoy mild highlighting.

So! If you have seen a longish haircut/style recently that you think I might like, send it to me! Pleaseee! You have 15 days to do so before I have to pick something! <3 <3 <3

Nope~

2006-11-24T22:50:01Z

This is a notice dedicated to anyone who I've ever met, or anyone who happens to just be reading this, who isn't involved in the leadership or logistics of any online/MMO guilds, but feels justified complaining endlessly about how everything is doomed.

KNOCK IT OFF.

I'm so tired of it, if you don't want to step up to the plate and help, shut up. I don't do this because I enjoy it, I do it because someone needs to, and because I care about the people involved enough to want to see them enjoy the game. Heck, I'm irked beyond all belief and sick to my stomach just reading this stuff, and I can't even imagine how Kia, Arma and Mufassa must feel, or about how annoying it must have been for Mel, Cookie, Kis, Alm, Agris, and Phas when they were in the same boat; it's such a thankless job, and to see you people going onto PUBLIC forums and bashing your OWN guild admin just because we don't keep you entertained enough, get off your high horse, shut up, and help. ENTERTAIN YOURSELF. Believe it or not, it's not that hard. Chat with a friend, get a couple people together and go terrorize an opposing faction if you play a PvP game, or if you're more into PvE, go kill something. If you're a crafter, go craft. Enough with the complaining, enough with the ridicule, enough with the condescending thoughts because we dared to have lives outside the game. Set some goals for yourself that don't depend on someone else putting your week together for you. If you can't find anything to make goals about in game, make them about something in REAL LIFE. Yes, oh noez, I dared to mention the R word. Reality makes you appreciate the game better, try it sometime.

THE WORLD IS NOT ENDING BECAUSE MOLTEN CORE DID NOT HAPPEN THIS WEEK. YOUR LIFE IS NOT OVER BECAUSE THE DKP SYSTEM DOESN'T WORK THE EXACT WAY YOU WANTED IT TO. YOUR YEAR IS NOT RUINED BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE GOT 'LEET ITEM X' BEFORE YOU. Have fun, enjoy the presence of the people you play with, and if you don't, go do something else. Don't bash the people who put in untold hours behind the scenes to keep things running, even if they don't always run smoothly.

Nowhere in the TOS for any online game that says you have a right to abuse people because you aren't enjoying something. If you don't enjoy it, fine, find a way to make it enjoyable, but don't brutalize the people that care about you, even if you don't feel the same way about them.

Scaring Grandkids

2006-10-21T04:58:41Z

I watched a movie with Kinbrae today, it was some new-ish make of Little Red Riding Hood ... and man, I am totally going to be that Grandma someday. XD She put some plastic wolf fangs in her mouth and was running around scaring her grandson; it was great.

Jen bullied me into actually doing something with my MySpace account. /cry

Soooo ... I'm back in Montana for a few months to visit friends, and to get an idea what on earth I'm supposed to be doing with my life. I went to church with my family on Sunday; it's the first time I've been in months. It ... was amazing. I've felt so much better all week since then, I don't know why I convinced myself that I could keep away from that particular aspect of my life and be better off for it. God works in mysterious ways, and a lot of the time they hurt like heck, but it's amazing the peace that comes on the flip side of the coin.

Matt had two black eyes and a messed up nose when I got back last week; apparently he had a run-in with someone's elbow at soccer practice. XD His eyes are pretty much normal now, but his nose has -another- slight bend in it. Poor kid. XD

I've been hanging out with Kinbrae a lot since I got back, it's so nice to have a friend to just be with. ^-^

I'm not sure what's going on for the rest of the year, but I need to go back to North Carolina by early December; right now further planning is sort of up in the air until Crystal and Dawn can sit down with me and work out who wants to move where. XD

Never Again

2006-09-13T08:30:56Z

I have decided that the worst mistake you can make in life is to allow yourself to believe that 'patience' and 'complacency' possess identical definitions.

F U Blizzard

2006-08-16T11:16:09Z

Not doing this anymore. Run your own damn guild. I'm tired of doing it for you when I'm the dark about 98% of what you want to do anyways.

I could have been a bridesmaid at one of my best friend's weddings. You know, one of those things that may only happen to you once in your entire life. But no, I was too busy running ZG to answer the phone. And then it was too late, because she had to know that week, and I forgot to call her back, because I was trying to salvage the minor disaster that was occuring under your nose, on your screen 20 inches away, while you were AFK happily watching Naruto. I picked this MMO up and played it because it was supposed to be WITH YOU, and I haven't played WITH YOU for probably five months now. Not cool. Nothx. Standing in Orgimmar for three hours at a time simply because I can't get people to stop sending me tells about what we're recruiting and why we cap honor isn't my idea of fun.

Give me my FFXI back, with the people that I so haphazardly abandoned so I could play WoW WITH YOU. I'm done with laying in bed for hours in the morning trying to find a reason to get up, I'm done with staring at the forums for an hour when I do get up, because in the back of my head I don't want to log in to another pointless, boring day where I don't get to do anything I want, I'm sick of feeling like the last 8 months were a collossal waste of my life. I'm tired of looking around at the disaster the house is and giving up before I even make it over to the box of trash bags. I'm tired of waiting for that never appearing day where you remember to get your car fixed, and we can stop adding to the 228,000 miles on mine, and I'm not ok with the fact that you ignored me for 36 hours straight when I tried to tell you that all of this is NOT NORMAL, and that I need YOUR HELP to fix it. And most of all, I am NOT OK WITH YOU TELLING ME YOU'LL NEVER MAKE ME CRY LIKE THAT AGAIN, AND THEN DOING THE EXACT SAME THING TWO WEEKS LATER.

Idio, Sixis, Kia, Boney, Puff-Puff, Lumar, Beaux, Horny, Muff-cross, Skailalalalalalala, Punky, Armadyl-lo, Ginzu, Swifty, Ibiss, Noemi, Holy, Nikto, Gay-tanic, Sparklez, Erez ... especially Idio, Noemi-taru, and Kia ... you guys are some of the greatest people I know. I'm sorry ... I probably won't be back, but I can't justify this level of stress anymore. I love you all, but I want all the opportunities I missed in the last 8 months of my life back. Please forgive me.

OMGZ

2006-02-16T17:41:59Z

I am alive. O.o;;;;;;;

But my credit card is still expired and for some reason the mail isn't coming here. Need to call the post office.

I've been sick forever and a half and my phone doesn't work, hurray. I hate having allergies. T_T

Starting a job sometime next week, I believe, stay tuned for more info! ^-^b

Staying Up Late

2005-12-27T11:14:28Z

Wow. SO MUCH TO DO. Not nearly enough time to do it in.

It's kind of scary that I'm leaving tomorrow night. Er. Well, tonight I guess. This whole 4am thing is throwing me off. :X I still need to change the oil in my car, go over to storage, hunt down some dishes, repack about 15 boxes, finish washing my clothes, pack my clothes, PACK MY CAR, and sleep somewhere in all that. Depending on if Levi actually makes it into town, departure target is around 8pm. Hopefully that will put me in Kansas City around noon on Wednesday. I'd love to get my headlights aimed before I leave, but that's looking like more and more of a pipe dream. Why the hell does no one aim headlights anymore? I've called about 500 billion places, and NO ONE DOES IT.

8 more hours to stay awake. Ugh.

Must not sleep. Must be awake for an all-night drive.

AUGH.

Dad's Christmas present to me was paying to get the muffler and exhaust pipe on my car replaced. It sounds SO amazingly much better; it's really a blessing to know that I don't have to make this huge trip while listening to my car rattle.

The closer it gets to leaving time, the more nervous I get. I've never lived this far away from home before. :X Is it normal to feel cornered before you undertake a big life change? I'm not sure that I feel like it's a bad thing, but I very much feel like I'm choking, in a proverbial sense. Anxiety maybe? I dunno. I'm breathing, but I feel like somehow I'm not; like I'm waiting for someone to push me that one final step over the edge of a cliff and into the unseen water below. I know I have to do this on my own, and that no one can take this step but me, and yet somehow, I feel like I'm still 5 years old, waiting for someone who knows better than I do to come and affirm for me that my life is headed in the right direction, that yes, I can do anything I want, yes, the world is my oyster. Only problem is that no one's coming. Is this what growing up feels like?

I'm not sure I like it. It's fucking lonely, and somehow has a very undefinable finality to it. It scares the hell out of me.

Random Junk

2005-12-22T23:13:54Z

Jen talked me into making a MySpace account. :X My username there is the same as it is here, but I have done exactly nothing with it yet. XD

ELITE new HNM Forum thing. OhLookItsMe on HNMLS.com. A huge pile of Kudos to Raistlin (I think he's from Diabolos) for all of his work on this site.

STILL NO HDD. T_T Sony is a bastich.

Congrats to DJ on his Herald's Gaiters, and to Jamal (I think) on his E. Body.

At least I don't think I'm missing anything this weekend, since it's Christmas and all LS activities have been cancelled.

YEAHBORINGPOSTSORRY. I'll come back and make it longer later. :X

Dynamis Lord

2005-12-19T01:52:10Z

CONGRATULATIONS LOVELESS ON YOUR FIRST DYNAMIS LORD WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also, congratulations to Trumpeter and Justarius on their Wizard's Petasos, to Agris on his Valor Surcoat, and to Phazen on the other 100 Coin that dropped. ^-^ Congratulations to Hailie on the Shadow Mantle, and to Saprykin on the Shadow Ring. Baja didn't tell me who won the 100 Coin that Dynamis Lord dropped, but congrats to whoever won that as well. ^-^

Books

2005-12-15T05:27:54Z

Wow, I'm 1/3 done making a list of all my books, and the related ones I want ...

This is going to take forever.

~Book List~

Anthony, Piers:
I have:
· Dragon’s Gold
· Serpent’s Silver
· Chimaera’s Copper
· A Spell For Chameleon
· The Source of Magic
· Castle Roogna

What I’m Looking For:
· Centaur Aisle
· Ogre, Ogre
· Night Mare
· Dragon on a Pedestal
· Crewel Lye: A Caustic Yarn
· Golem in the Gears
· Vale of the Vole
· Heaven Cent
· Man From Mundania
· Isle of View
· Question Quest
· The Color of Her Panties
· Demon’s Don’t Dream
· Harpy Thyme
· Yon Ill Wind
· Faun and Games
· Zombie Lover
· Xone of Contention
· The Dastard
· Swell Foop
· Up In a Heaval
· Cube Route
· Currant Events
· Pet Peeve
· Orc’s Opal
· Mouvar’s Magic

Brooks, Terry:
I have:
· The Sword of Shannara
· The Elfstones of Shannara
· The Wishsong of Shannara
· The First King of Shannara
· Voyage of the Jerle Shannara: Isle Witch
· Voyage of the Jerle Shannara: Antrax
· The World of Shannara
· Running With the Demon

What I’m Looking For:
· The Scions of Shannara
· The Druid of Shannara
· The Elf Queen of Shannara
· The Talismans of Shannara
· Voyage of the Jerle Shannara: Morgawr
· High Druid of Shannara: Jarka Ruus
· High Druid of Shannara: Tanequil
· High Druid of Shannara: Straken
· A Knight of the Word
· Angel Fire East
· Magic Kingdom For Sale: SOLD!
· The Black Unicorn
· Wizard At Large
· The Tangle Box
· Witches Brew

Douglass, Sara:
I have:
· The Wayfarer’s Redemption
· Enchanter
· Starman

What I’m Looking For:
· Sinner
· Pilgrim
· Crusader

Edgerton, Teresa:
I have:
· Child of Saturn
· The Work of the Sun

What I’m Looking For:
· The Moon in Hiding
· The Castle of the Silver Wheel
· The Grail and the Ring
· The Moon and the Thorn

Grisham, John:
I have:
· The Street Lawyer
· The Partner
· The Rainmaker
· The Testament
· A Painted House
· The Brethren

What I’m Looking For:
· A Time To Kill
· The Firm
· The Pelican Brief
· The Chamber
· The Runaway Jury
· The Summons
· The King of Torts
· The Last Juror
· The Broker

Haydon, Elizabeth:
I have:
· Prophecy
· Destiny
· Requiem For the Sun
· Elegy For a Lost Star

What I’m Looking For:
· Rhapsody
· Prophecy (The binding of my current copy is ruined)
· The Assassin King (Release Delayed by Publisher until ???)

Jordan, Robert:
I have:
· The Eye of the World
· The Great Hunt
· The Dragon Reborn
· The Shadow Rising
· The Fires of Heaven
· Lord of Chaos
· A Crown of Swords
· The Path of Daggers
· Winter’s Heart
· Crossroads of Twilight

What I’m Looking For:
· Knife of Dreams
· New Spring: The Novel

Kerr, Katherine:
I have:
· Daggerspell
· Darkspell
· The Bristling Wood
· A Dragon Revenant

What I’m Looking For:
· A Time of Exiles
· A Time of Omens
· Days of Blood and Fire
· Days of Air and Darkness
· The Red Wyvern
· The Black Raven
· The Fire Dragon
· The Gold Falcon (Release Delayed by Publisher until ???)

Left Behind:
I have:
· Left Behind
· Tribulation Force
· Soul Harvest
· Nicolae
· Apollyon
· Assassins
· Desecration
· The Mark

What I’m Looking For:
· The Indwelling
· The Remnant
· Armageddon
· Glorious Appearing
· The Rising
· The Regime

Lewis, C.S.:
I have:
· The Magician’s Nephew
· The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe
· The Horse and His Boy
· Prince Caspian
· The Voyage of the Dawn Treader
· The Silver Chair
· The Last Battle
· The Screwtape Letters
· Out of the Silent Planet
· Surprised By Joy
· The Problem of Pain

What I’m Looking For:
· Perelandra
· That Hideous Strength
· A Grief Observed
· Mere Christianity
· Miracles
· The Abolition of Man
· The Great Divorce
· The Weight of Glory

McCaffrey, Anne:
I have:
· Dragonsdawn
· Dragonflight
· Dragonquest
· The White Dragon
· Moreta: Dragonlady of Pern
· The Renegades of Pern
· All the Weyrs of Pern
· The Dolphins of Pern
· The Masterharper of Pern
· The Skies of Pern
· Dragonsong
· Dragonsinger
· Dragondrums
· The Girl Who Heard Dragons
· Crystals Singer
· Killeshandra
· The Rowan
· Damia
· Damia’s Children
· Lyon’s Pride
· The Tower and the Hive

What I’m Looking For:
· Nerilka’s Story
· The Chronicles of Pern: First Fall
· Dragonseye
· Crystal Line
· Dragon’s Kin (written with Todd McCaffrey)
· A Gift of Dragons
· Dragonsblood (Todd McCaffrey)

Modesitt Jr., L.E.:
I have:
· The Magic of Recluse
· The Towers of Sunset

What I’m Looking For:
· The Magic Engineer
· The Order War
· The Death of Chaos
· The Fall of Angels
· The Chaos Balance
· The White Order
· Colors of Chaos
· Magi’I of Cyador
· Scion of Cyador
· Wellspring of Chaos
· Ordermaster
· The Soprano Sorceress
· The Spellsong War
· Darksong Rising
· The Shadow Sorceress
· Shadowsinger

Nix, Garth:
I have:
· Sabriel
· Lirael

What I’m Looking For:
· Abhorsen
· The Creature in the Case
· The Ragwitch
· Mister Monday
· Grim Tuesday
· Drowned Wednesday
· Sir Thursday (Not yet released)
· Lady Friday (Not yet released)
· Superior Saturday (Not yet released)
· Lord Sunday (Not yet released)

Pierce, Tamora:
I have:
· Alanna: The First Adventure
· In the Hand of the Goddess
· The Woman Who Rides Like a Man
· Lioness Rampant

What I’m Looking For:
· Wild Magic
· Wolf-Speaker
· The Emperor Mage
· The Realms of the Gods
· Magic Circle: Sandry’s Book
· Magic Circle: Tris’s Book
· Magic Circle: Daja’s Book
· Magic Circle: Briar’s Book
· First Test
· Page
· Squire
· Lady Knight
· Magic Steps
· Street Magic
· Cold Fire
· Shatterglass

HMMM

2005-12-14T21:40:18Z

Good job, SVINA. Ever consider a career in advertising? Oh yeah, they have laws against ads that are MISLEADING OR FALSIFIED. Silly me.

So like, I got my PS2 back. In a box. From Sony.

WITHOUT THE HDD.

...

'Your harddrive will be replaced, and is being shipped to you from another Sony center. We apologize for the inconvenience.'

/Cry

I am having FFXI withdrawals. Bad ones. I am trying to keep myself busy online, but there are a grand total of about 4 websites I have any continuing interest in. I am trying to keep myself busy packing. But it's very cold outside, and I'd much rather procrastinate. I am trying to keep myself busy playing DDR, but I am at a point where I believe I have finally met my match for song difficulty, and it's starting to get to me.

THANK GOD AT LEAST KINBRAE IS BACK IN TOWN, AND JEN IS ALMOST DONE WITH FINALS.

The Sony reps have not called me back yet to let me know how long it will be until my HDD gets here. SuX.

And Vil is quitting. T_T T_T T_T Soso sad. T_T T_T T_T Good luck with the rest of your life, Vil, you'll be sorely missed. :(

FIXING MY CAR

2005-12-13T22:11:50Z

NEEDLEZ

2005-12-06T00:11:44Z

Hmmm.

So like, I donated plasma today for the first time ever. I haven't had a needle stuck in my arm since I was in 6th grade. :x I forgot that it kinda hurts. :x

They pay you like, $200 to donate plasma 8 times in a month. So now I have to decide if the other $180 is worth being ruthlessly stabbed 7 more times in the next three and a half weeks. >.>

I guess it's really not so bad as I make it sound, but they take a blood sample from your finger when you get there, then stick a needle in your arm 15 minutes later, and leave it there for about an hour. @_@ And this machine thing next to you makes all these whirring noises, and then everyone once in a while you'll get a really nasty metallic taste in your mouth from the stuff they add to your blood to keep it from coagulating while it's in their machine. :x The metallic taste is actually probably the worst part, aside from the initial pain of having the needle in your arm. And honestly, $16-ish an hour really isn't bad for being required to do such strenuous things as sitting in a chair and watching DVDs. XD

Oh, you get really, REALLY cold right when it's done, because they put saline something in you to help make up for the fact that they just stole a few quarts of your plasma. OMGCOLD. SO COLD. T_T

I honestly thought it would be a lot worse, overall. I hate needles but it wasn't that big of a deal once they got the needle in.

Deep Thoughts

2005-12-04T05:12:01Z

Ok, well, maybe not ALL of them. But most of them.

Non-Deep Thoughts:

25 Songs down, 4 to go.

Well, 3 Songs and one Torture Device. XD

I got bored yesterday and went through all the DDR: Mario Mix songs on Very Hard, just to see if I could get A's in all of them. I'm close to finishing them after a few hours of extra work today, but I don't honestly think it's possible to get an A on Very Hard Bowser's Castle without cheating.

I'm not even sure it's possible to clear the STAGE without cheating.

-.-

I want my PS2 back.

I need a way to make some $, both IRL and In-Game.

More of the same-old.

Oh. Bleach is ELITE. E-L-I-T-E. I am so sad that V.10 doesn't come out till sometime in January. The first Samurai Champloo manga is also ELITE, although not quite so ELITE as Bleach. I think Bleach > All, except for maybe Mars. I really, really, really love Mars.

Oh. I found my copies of these also. :3 :3 :3

ELITE.

Deeper Thoughts:

Playing the game 'Chicken' with my conscience is becoming a much more painful and disturbing experience than I remember it being last time I tried it.

Is it really so strange to find someone WHO ACTUALLY LOVES YOU? Why are you in such disbelief about this concept? :(

I miss Kinbrae and Jen and Mike and Colin and everyone I used to go do stuff with. T_T It's kind of traumatizing to actually think about some of the things that wander into your head when you have nothing to distract you except the streetlight outside your window at 9:00pm.

Actually, it's not so much traumatizing as it is painful.

I had the strangest memory today. I don't know why, but I was thinking about Ryan for the first time in years. What drives people to the point where they truly believe they have no reason left to live? People say that suicide is the coward's way out, and yet I don't think I'd ever have the guts to kill myself. Maybe it's cowardly to run from the pain, but it sure as hell would take more guts than I have to seriously contemplate that kind of stuff. Maybe it's just more despair. I guess I don't really understand what it's like to feel like that. Even when I was going through the typical adolescent phase where everyone hated me and there was no reason to get up in the morning, I couldn't understand what would drive someone like Nathan to try to kill himself. Or maybe dealing with Nathan, as his only friend in the world, gave me too keen of an insight into what's on the other end of a friendship like that. Maybe the constant fear that I'd come to the library the next day and he'd be gone scared me out of ever falling into that school of thought.

I wonder what happened to him, and at the same time, I'm not sure I want to know. I think if I found out, I'd have to deal with wondering if I should have done something differently.

Will I ever get a chance to do something worthwhile with what little talent I have? It's so funny; when you grow up with people telling you that you can do anything, it's amazing how easy it is to give up and do nothing, simply because you have no idea what you should be doing. People expect you to be some prodigy, and wait patiently for rose petals to fall from the heavens while red carpet rolls for you, and all the while, you are trying to figure out how to pay for next months rent, just like Average Joe. And no one helps you understand how the world works, because somehow they all believe that you already have all the answers just by possessing some small drop of talent in the ocean of geniuses who already exist. Jayson has the Feel Good Inc. (Gorillaz) music video on his MySpace account. That is some cool animation. Wow. I want to draw something that cool. Or even something as cool as Bleach. I just want to draw something that someone will remember for more than 20 minutes. Hell, I just want to DO something that someone will remember for more than 20 minutes. It doesn't even have to be an artistic project. Just ... something. So funny. I wanted to sing. Everyone told me I should draw. Now I don't care. I just want to be someone who did something worth remembering. Is that selfish?

OMGWATCOLD

2005-12-02T23:50:30Z

Wowowowow. 17 degrees for a high today. :3 And on Sunday, the high is supposed to be 7. /Joy

I'm working Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and the next Monday while Scott is in LA at some comic convention. Woohoo for hours. :3

And I got the other 7 volumes of Bleach that are out. :3 /Hurray!

Wowz Still Alive

2005-11-29T17:21:15Z

I r not dead.

!

Yes, contrary to whatever the few of you who actually read this mess may think, I have not fallen off the face of the earth. I've ... just ... been doing things. Don't ask me what, because I honestly can't remember the details.

Oh, I've been playing a bunch of DDR: Mario Mix. Crystal got me freaking hooked. And my deepest respect goes out to anyone who can unlock Super Hard on Underground Mozart, much less dance it. Same goes for Bowser's Castle. O.M.G. Such amazingly impossible songs. I managed to get B's on Normal and Hard Bowser's Castle, but I can't for the life of me get an A, or even unlock Super Hard. I really like the music on Piroli though, and also the music on Always Smiling. Once you get past the super lame Story Mode, Free Zone dancing is actually a lot of fun, and quite challenging on the Hard/Very Hard/Super Hard modes.

Mosh Mode is still retarded though, and I still refuse to use it.

Hmmm. Spent Turkey Day up in Harlowton visiting my grandparents, and watching the Denver-Dallas game. /Joy for Denver winning again. :3 They are 9-2 now, and unless they screw something up horribly, they are going to the playoffs. \(^-^)/

Oh yeah, the 21st was my sister's birthday, and the 22nd was my mom's birthday, so that's why I wasn't around then.

I got new shampoo yesterday and wow, it made my hair really soft. o.o It's the new color formula thing Pantene is making, it's actually pretty cool. XD

/Forgot everything else that happened recently.

I'm pretty sure we've killed Tiamat another time or two or fifteen; I know Gains got Herald Gaiters, and I think I remember hearing about another Wyrm Horn and Noritsune Kote dropping. I gave up keeping track. Gains also quit yesterday or so. T_T But! OMG! Oli came back! Hurray for more Tarutaru Adventures. \(^-^)/ He's going to level his BLM with my SMN and Trump's BRD. Yayyyy! Too bad he absolutely has no gear for anything. XD I told him he could use my BLM stuff, but he still has to get his Moldavite Earring again. XD I think we also did Proto-Omega-Ultima-Whatever, because there was a cool screenshot of Cerescole in the Homan Pants on our forums. They look like surfer shorts or something. XD Congrats to her. ^-^ We got another Ridill somewhere along the way, and a dual drop of A. Feet from the same Fafhogg. Congratulations to Arcien (I think) on the Ridill.

Ummmm. PS2 should be back by December 10, hopefully sooner. It should get to San Diego today or tomorrow, (curse holidays messing with shipping routes) and hopefully be back within a week to a week and a half.

Thank God, I am so bored.

I need to make $. If anyone has some brilliant $-making ideas, I would be much obliged for any help. T_T

The Ultimate Recap of Harry Potter 4

2005-11-20T04:18:55Z

Okso. I have to admit I was not as overall thrilled with Goblet of Fire as I hoped I would be. Yes, it is a series, and yes, I think every person who went to see GoF has seen the other three movies a cumulative total of 74 times. But. There was almost no character development, and I was still not as impressed with it as all the commercials have been leading me to believe I would be. T_T

And so, here is my brief synopsis. (If any of the events are slightly out of order, this is because they all happened so fast that it was hard to keep them -in- order, and is not my fault. And yes, I'm quite aware that some of the names are most likely misspelled. Slight Spoilers may be contained, but if you didn't read the book, half this movie will go over your head anyways.)

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

(Ron's house)

Hermione: Wake up! Wake up, or we'll miss our que to be on the set with the Quiddich Tournament!

... And Ron, those are abysmally ugly pajamas.

(Quiddich Pitch, World Tournament)

Harry: Weren't we supposed to explain that that boot we just used to get to this set was a Portkey, and that it's yet another way of traveling in the wizarding world?

Ron: Oh look, the games starting.

(The Weasly's Tent)

Fred and George: Oh look, the games over! Ron is a girl!

Ron: Am not.

Mr. Weasley: OH NOEZ! Deatheaters are attacking! Children get back to the portkey that we never explained!

Children: Ok!

(Outside the Weasley's tent, chaos ensues. We see Harry knocked out on the ground, followed by a new scene in which the massive camping area is smoldering, and no one else is around.)

Harry: Ow.

Sinister Man in the Distance: !

Harry: Stop!

(Mr. Weasly and various other unintroduced characters approach, followed by Ron and Hermione.)

Hermione: Harry! Are you ok?

Harry: Yes. There was a man. But I don't know who he was.

Unintroduced Random Cast Members: Quick! Find him!

(Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardy)

Dumbledore: This year is the Triwizard Tournament, and all these new, unintroduced stupid girls and creepy boys will be joining us for it. Put your name in this goblet if you are over 17 and wish to participate.

Ron: Those are hawt girls.

(The Defense Against the Dark Arts Classroom)

Moody: Hi, I'm Alastor Moody, your creepy new defense against the Dark Arts teacher, who Dumbledore did not introduce because this movie is only 2 and a half hours long.

Class: ...

Moody: Today we're going to learn about the Unforgiveable Curses. To help me demonstrate, I've procured this very dangerous looking spider. Please remember to look sick when I perform these curses.

(Moody proceeds to perform the Unforgivable Curses on the spider-thing.)

Class: ...

(Great Hall, presumably several weeks later.)

Dumbledore: The Goblet of Fire has given us 4 names this year, including someone who shouldn't have been able to enter, and 3 people we have never introduced, and are not going to bother introducing now! Here are you champions!

(Applause)

(Some Random School Room)

Dumbledore: Harry, you're sure you didn't put your name in the goblet?

Harry: No sir, but ...

Snape: No matter, let him compete anyways.

(Random Classroom)

Rita Skeeter: Hi, I'm Rita Skeeter, and this will be my only speaking role in the movie, in spite of my annoying yet somewhat prevalent role in the book. Harry, come tell me about yourself!

(Broom Closet)

Harry: Well, this tri...

Rita: Fabulous Harry! Our readers will love it! Bye now!

Harry: But ... Um ...

(The Enchanted Forest outside of the school walls.)

Hagrid: Look, 'arry, Dragons.

Harry: Brilliant.

(Some Random Classroom, presumably Transfigurations.)

McGonagal: Ok, dance.

(1st Triwizard Event)

Hermione: Oh Harry, look! Dragons!

Harry: Yes, brilliant.

(Harry enters the quiddich pitch, and comes face to face with an angry Hungarian Horntail.)

Harry: ... Brilliant. Blahblahblah Firebolt.

(Harry's quiddich broom appears beside him.)

Dragon: Damn.

Harry: I win.

(Griffindor Common Room)

Harry: Behold the egg!

Everyone: Oooooo.

Egg: AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Everyone: Ewwwwww.

(Owlry)

Harry: Cho, I love you!

Cho: Harry, we don't have time to get into a love interest in this movie.

Harry: ;_;

(Winter Ball)

Hermione: Look, I'm going with one of the champions who was never introduced!

Ron and Harry (in unison): Brilliant.

(Prefect's Bath)

Moaning Myrtle: Harry, you're quite secksay naked, and you should open that egg underwater.

Harry: ......

......

..... Brilliant ....

(2nd Triwizard Trial.)

Harry: Brilliant, I'm busy choking and turning into a fish.

(The three champions enter the water. Fleur (the unintroduced female champion) gives up shortly after the start. Harry finds Ron, Hermione, and two more unintroduced characters at the bottom of the lake. Harry tries to rescue both Ron and Hermione.)

Merpeople: ONLY ONE!

Harry: Faak you all.

(Victor, another unintroduced champion, rescues Hermione.)

Harry: ...

(Harry rescues Ron and the remaining unrescued, unintroduced girl, and is promptly attacked by Killer Octopus-People.)

Harry: ...

(Harry miraculously uses an ascension spell just before he blacks out, and makes it back to the top of the lake.)

Everyone: Hurray!

Harry: Dammit, the movies half over and I've barely got to say anything! Aren't I supposed to be the main character?!?!? Where's my lines????

(3rd Triwizard Event)

Harry: WTF! The second one just ended! How is the third one already starting!!!

Dumbledore: This maze is miles long, but for the interest of time, we will be fast-forwarding to the important parts of your journey. Ready, set, go!

Harry: ... Is it too late for me to resign from making this film?

Moody: Harry, go left.

(Inside the Maze)

Harry: Oh look, Fleur is being attack by some vines, and Victor is crazy. Brilliant.

Cedric: How do you know our names???? I don't even know our names ...

Harry: Look, the Portk ... I mean the Triwizard Tournament Cup!

Cedric: You aren't supposed to know it's a portkey ...

Harry: Shut up, blame the brilliant scriptwriters for the fact that I'm an idiot.

Cedric: Right. Ok, go.

(Cedric and Harry grab the cup and are teleported to a creepy graveyard, in which an ominous looking shrine bears the name Tom Riddle.)

Harry: Oh dear. Cedric, you should ... oh, you're already dead. Damn.

Voldemort: HAHAHAHAHA! DEATH TO HARRY POTTER!

(A ferocious battle ensues, lots of special effects are unveiled, and Harry is guarded once again by the ghosts of his mother and father, along with Cedric.)

Lily: Harry! Go to the portkey! Our auras will guard you!

Cedric: Wow look, I got another line! Oh ... uh, Harry, take my body back please.

(Harry grabs the Triwizard Cup and returns to the Quiddich-Looking-Stadium-Thing-That's-Much-Too-Small-To-Be-A-Quiddich-Pitch.)

Everyone: OMG, Cedric's dead! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

(Moody's Office)

Moody: Damn, out of Polyjuice Potion. Guess I have to kill you, Harry Potter.

Harry: Brilliant.

(Door explodes.)

Dumbledore: Harry! Are you ok?

Harry: Well, aside from the massive gash in my wrist that looks like it should be bleeding profusely, but miraculously isn't, I'm marvelous.

Dumbledore: Brilliant. Snape, since this is only a cameo shot, do your best to give us a smile for once.

Snape: ...

Dumbledore: Oh for Merlin's sake! Can't you at least PRETEND you're a good guy?

Snape: Damn you! Maybe someone still hasn't read the 6th book! Maybe I still have swooning fangirls somewhere! Give me screentime!

Dumbledore: Shut up, everyone's read the 6th book, and they all hate you. Neener-Neener.

Snape: ;_;

Dumbledore: That's not very intimidating ...

Snape: Just watch, I'll kill you yet.

(Cedric's Funeral in the Great Hall)

Dumbledore: May Cedric's death not be in vain. And may the next movie have some character development, since we ran out of time for it in this one.

Everyone: Amen.

(A short scene of Harry, Hermione, and Ron exiting the Hogwarts campus plays.)

Ron: I still think those unintroduced girls are hawt.

Hermione: ...

(Roll Credits)

:o