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19-2000 (Soulchild Remix) -by- Gorillaz |
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I've just been locked out of my email for the second time in a week, and the password recovery isn't working this time, so 1.) I have a new email address, and 2.) I lost everyone else's. Please send me a message with your email, or requesting my new one!
Also, to whoever is messing with my various random accounts, KNOCK IT OFF.
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| Just Playing with Lyrics |
[31 Oct 2007|10:23pm] |
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Little girl
With your oversized veil
A yard of silk
Hides your plastic nails
Your plushie prince hops in the door
With glass eyes shining in your dime-store ring
He'll give you everything
You're waiting for your story day
Years go by, dreams fade to gray
But somewhere tucked away
Is your fairytale ending
With the flowers and silk roses and
All your dreams of princes
They feel so right
They're never true
Watch your other half abandon you
Again
But this isn't how it will always end
Little boy
With your hobby horse
And your dragon-slaying
Wooden sword
You're invincible inside your tin
Your princess calls from within your dream
She'll give you everything
You're waiting for your story day
Years go by, dreams fade to gray
But somewhere tucked away
Is your fairytale ending
With the tower and the girl and
All your dreams of princesess
They feel so right
They're never true
Watch your other half abandon you
Again
But this isn't how it will always end
.... Yeah, it's not done, but copyright me (D. Kuchera) 10-31-07 and blah blah. It's still a mess and clunky in parts and unfinished, but I'm working on it. D:
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Edit: Two more added via a request from Steven. These are both old, from 2003, so don't tell me they suck, I already know that. xD Again, both are copyright of Danita Kuchera.
Kerosene
Lighting jars of kerosene
To smash upon the bloody streets
Amidst these children's empty screams
For monthers who don't come
Why we play these games of death
Is something that I'll never grasp
To create worlds from rape and theft
And death and blood and bones
(C)
These
Are the times
When up is down and right is wrong
How
Will you Stand
When gravity is gone
These
Are the days
To cling fast to all you believe
And stand
Through the storm
And never surrender your dreams
Lighting jars of kerosene
To glimpse the darkened, empty streets
And hear the echoes of the screams
For those who never came
Life's worth so much more than this
Souls aren't a currency for trade
What gives the right to second guess
Life's value when it's not our own
(C)
And though I'm one small voice
Standing through the storm
I'll never stop screaming
I'll never stop screaming
I'll never stop screaming
Until someone hears me
(C) x2
Can you hear me?
Annnnnd the other one ~ this is something I actually wrote for my youngest sister when she was about 6.
Larina
Swinging at the park
Down the street, round the bend
Thinking it would be so welcome to be free of life again
'Cause you grow up
And you grow away
And you learn as you live
And you fight for the day
That you'll be all you wanted and you'll find all your dreams
But you come to these points
Where you long just to see
(C)
A minute in time through the eyes of a child
A second of freedom in her dandelion's flight
A moment of joy as she dances and sings
A shadow of hope in her vibrant dreams
So I'm swinging at the park
Down the street, round the bend
Watching her float on her sunbeams again
Soon she'll grow up
And she'll grow away
And I'll long for her song
And I'll beg her to stay
She'll become all she's wanted and she'll find all her dreams
But she'll come to a point
When she longs just to see
(C)
She's the closest to an angel that I've ever been
And I'd die just to spare her the heartache life spends
But I know she'll live on through whatever it brings
And I'll wait in the park for her under the swings
(C)
And we'll sit there for hours and share all our tears
Our laughter and triumphs, our nightmares and fears
And we'll swing at the park down the street, round the bend
Watching always for angels to dance on sunbeams again
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| Stupid Girl |
[24 Oct 2007|08:34pm] |
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Something happened a few days ago that I've been thinking about randomly since it happened. I was talking to a friend on AIM, and he mentioned that it had been a tough week. Apparently, one of his friends, who I will call Bob, who I sort of have met once or twice kinda, but don't really know, has a girlfriend. Let's call her Jane.
Well, had a girlfriend.
Apparently, Jane met some fairly well-known personality on My-Space. Or he found her, I wasn't particularly clear on which. Anyways, Jane has been engaged to or at least heavily involved with Bob for several years, I guess everyone who knew them fairly well expected them to get married soon. This dude Jane met on Myspace had some kind of a show or tour or something that went through the town she lives in. Long story short, in spite of several people begging her not to, Jane eventually ends up in his hotel that night, after dragging Bob to see this show. Oh yeah, Jane knew this was going to happen, by the way, because she made Bob take his own car.
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Seriously, WTF. WTF, stupid, stupid girl. How's it going to feel 10 years from now when you realized that you traded Mr. Perfect, and probably your perfect life with him, for a one night stand with some half-famous guy who will deny ever having met you? Is your job at the 7-11 that you still have when you're 35 because no one in a 100 mile radius will touch someone as shallow as you going to be fun? Will it be worth the 10 minutes of I-Slept-With-A-Sort-Of-Celebrity? Yeah, you probably think that it was worth it now, that that's what you wanted, but you're young enough TO BE HIS DAUGHTER. YOU'RE BARELY NOT CONSIDERED LEGAL JAILBAIT ANYMORE. YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT.
YOU ARE A STUPID, STUPID GIRL.
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Anyways, I'm tired but not too upset. Got 5 days at work this week, so hopefully I'll have a little extra cash to go to the Brazilian steakhouse place when we go to Raleigh in December. Why are we going to Raleigh in December, you ask? BECAUSE THE TRANS-SIBERIAN ORCHESTRA WILL BE IN RALEIGH IN DECEMBER. Oh yes. Win. The tickets are pricey but it will totally be worth it. ^-^
Oh yes, and if you are EVER, EVER, EVER, going in or even near Raleigh, please, do yourself a favor and go to Rio Churrascaria. (The Brazilian Steakhouse I mentioned above.) IT IS THE MOST AMAZING DINNER EVER. MMmmmmmMMmmmMMMmm. I rank it right up there with Bizen's, and if you've ever heard me go on about restaraunts before, you know that Bizen's is right at the top of my list. Rio Churrascaria is absolutely amazing. There are not words to describe how awesome of a place to go eat dinner this is. It was completely worth the $25. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
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| Drawinggggggggggggggggggggg |
[18 Oct 2007|10:15pm] |
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Yeah, so Megatokyo is finally getting interesting again, and I kinda wanted to do a fanart sketchy thing. So! Piroko. ^^ This is already an outdated picture, but I didn't want to scan it AGAIN tonight. I'll put up the lineart when I'm done inking it. ^^
And yes, I AM LISTENING TO DRUNKEN DANISH PIRATE TECHNO. Check it out at http://www.jensviking.dk ^^ Please note that the translated lyrics for this particular song are not appropriate for younger audiences, if you actually feel like going to the effort of finding out what he's singing. >_> (This is the song ~ http://www.jensviking.dk/sounds/mitnavner.mp3)
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| Mmmmmyeah |
[08 Oct 2007|03:22pm] |
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So I hate my job. (What else is new.)
Finally had that talk with Stu that I've been meaning to have for the last 5 months; it actually went fairly well. o_o
Can't save money, but at least I'm caught up on bills, and there's food in the kitchen. (Somewhere)
Although, I think I'm about to quit WoW. I can't find time to log in more than an hour or two a day, if even that anymore. I went like, 4 days without logging in this week, and I kind of enjoyed it. I'm tired of the drama, I'm tired of the untold hours behind the scenes that no one knows exist, the demands on time I don't have, and I'm tired of passing on stuff for people only to watch them happily walk away to ILL or another server like they deserved to take their purples and leave everyone else behind. The concept of being an unscripted feeder guild for ILL isn't a particularly enjoyable idea anyways. So, to Blizzard, good riddance. So long, and thanks for all the fish.
Problem is that there is NOTHING else to do here. Console games = $50 I don't have, Movies = $10 I don't have, driving to Fayetteville for dinner = $30 I don't have. GRR.
Honestly, I should probably draw more. Like, really. I keep having cool ideas for content and then totally botching the presentation. Bleh.
Mom -still- hasn't sent me the tax stuff I need. So yeah, probably no school for me again this spring. But, miracle of miracles, when I turn 24 next summer, I DON'T NEED THEIR TAX INFO ANYMORE. I CAN GO TO SCHOOL.
YUS.
Take that, life. I'm finally going to start winning. I C WUT U DID THAR, and I'm not falling for it. What's another 9 months when I've already been waiting 5 years? The tunnel has an end, and there's a sun hanging out right outside of it.
It feels good to realize that I've been awake for six hours, and I'm still smiling.
: )
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| Urgles @ Web Coding |
[22 Jun 2007|10:39am] |
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Okso, WoW servers have been down for a few hours now. I decided I'd try to get something remotely useful done, and since I was having problems with Guildportal randomly deleting my posts as I made them (AGAIN) I gave up and attempted to move the DKP lists off-site before I inadvertently destroyed them all.
/shoots Guildportal
2 hours later, I'm banging my head against the wall. Whoever's idea it was that I should try to teach myself CSS is anyone's guess, because it sure as heck couldn't have been mine. >.< I don't usually decide to randomly engage in activities that ultimately make me want to throw my computer out the window.
Daz hasn't been around for about 3 weeks now, so I'm subsequently afraid to try to upload anything to his host. Angelfire can die in a fire, the banners are wrecking what little code I manage to get right, and I have nowhere else to check and make sure that it's not just my computer that hates my style sheets.
I've been using the tutorials at W3schools.com, but they seem to assume that the user reading their directions has had some other exposure to CSS, and subsequently does not need every tiny nuance of their directives explained. I must fall into that 0.0005% of wanna-be web designers who is too stupid to know what the XHTML replacement for the 'font' element is. >.< I registered a username on their forums to ask a few things regarding how to turn all the base text on my webpage that -isn't- in a set of paragraph tags white, but apparently it will take them at least 24 hours to validate that I'm not a spammer, and give me posting access. Of course, by tomorrow, I will have either figured it out myself, or forgotten what my question was.
Die, internet.
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| WOOOOOOOOOT |
[20 Dec 2006|05:35pm] |
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I LOVE MY NEW HAIRCUT OMGOSH
(Sorry for the horrible webcam pic, I had to use something.) XD
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| Nope~ |
[24 Nov 2006|04:50pm] |
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This is a notice dedicated to anyone who I've ever met, or anyone who happens to just be reading this, who isn't involved in the leadership or logistics of any online/MMO guilds, but feels justified complaining endlessly about how everything is doomed.
KNOCK IT OFF.
I'm so tired of it, if you don't want to step up to the plate and help, shut up. I don't do this because I enjoy it, I do it because someone needs to, and because I care about the people involved enough to want to see them enjoy the game. Heck, I'm irked beyond all belief and sick to my stomach just reading this stuff, and I can't even imagine how Kia, Arma and Mufassa must feel, or about how annoying it must have been for Mel, Cookie, Kis, Alm, Agris, and Phas when they were in the same boat; it's such a thankless job, and to see you people going onto PUBLIC forums and bashing your OWN guild admin just because we don't keep you entertained enough, get off your high horse, shut up, and help. ENTERTAIN YOURSELF. Believe it or not, it's not that hard. Chat with a friend, get a couple people together and go terrorize an opposing faction if you play a PvP game, or if you're more into PvE, go kill something. If you're a crafter, go craft. Enough with the complaining, enough with the ridicule, enough with the condescending thoughts because we dared to have lives outside the game. Set some goals for yourself that don't depend on someone else putting your week together for you. If you can't find anything to make goals about in game, make them about something in REAL LIFE. Yes, oh noez, I dared to mention the R word. Reality makes you appreciate the game better, try it sometime.
THE WORLD IS NOT ENDING BECAUSE MOLTEN CORE DID NOT HAPPEN THIS WEEK. YOUR LIFE IS NOT OVER BECAUSE THE DKP SYSTEM DOESN'T WORK THE EXACT WAY YOU WANTED IT TO. YOUR YEAR IS NOT RUINED BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE GOT 'LEET ITEM X' BEFORE YOU. Have fun, enjoy the presence of the people you play with, and if you don't, go do something else. Don't bash the people who put in untold hours behind the scenes to keep things running, even if they don't always run smoothly.
Nowhere in the TOS for any online game that says you have a right to abuse people because you aren't enjoying something. If you don't enjoy it, fine, find a way to make it enjoyable, but don't brutalize the people that care about you, even if you don't feel the same way about them.
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| Scaring Grandkids |
[20 Oct 2006|10:45pm] |
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I watched a movie with Kinbrae today, it was some new-ish make of Little Red Riding Hood ... and man, I am totally going to be that Grandma someday. XD She put some plastic wolf fangs in her mouth and was running around scaring her grandson; it was great.
Jen bullied me into actually doing something with my MySpace account. /cry
Soooo ... I'm back in Montana for a few months to visit friends, and to get an idea what on earth I'm supposed to be doing with my life. I went to church with my family on Sunday; it's the first time I've been in months. It ... was amazing. I've felt so much better all week since then, I don't know why I convinced myself that I could keep away from that particular aspect of my life and be better off for it. God works in mysterious ways, and a lot of the time they hurt like heck, but it's amazing the peace that comes on the flip side of the coin.
Matt had two black eyes and a messed up nose when I got back last week; apparently he had a run-in with someone's elbow at soccer practice. XD His eyes are pretty much normal now, but his nose has -another- slight bend in it. Poor kid. XD
I've been hanging out with Kinbrae a lot since I got back, it's so nice to have a friend to just be with. ^-^
I'm not sure what's going on for the rest of the year, but I need to go back to North Carolina by early December; right now further planning is sort of up in the air until Crystal and Dawn can sit down with me and work out who wants to move where. XD
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| Never Again |
[13 Sep 2006|04:32am] |
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I have decided that the worst mistake you can make in life is to allow yourself to believe that 'patience' and 'complacency' possess identical definitions.
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| F U Blizzard |
[16 Aug 2006|07:09am] |
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Not doing this anymore. Run your own damn guild. I'm tired of doing it for you when I'm the dark about 98% of what you want to do anyways.
I could have been a bridesmaid at one of my best friend's weddings. You know, one of those things that may only happen to you once in your entire life. But no, I was too busy running ZG to answer the phone. And then it was too late, because she had to know that week, and I forgot to call her back, because I was trying to salvage the minor disaster that was occuring under your nose, on your screen 20 inches away, while you were AFK happily watching Naruto. I picked this MMO up and played it because it was supposed to be WITH YOU, and I haven't played WITH YOU for probably five months now. Not cool. Nothx. Standing in Orgimmar for three hours at a time simply because I can't get people to stop sending me tells about what we're recruiting and why we cap honor isn't my idea of fun.
Give me my FFXI back, with the people that I so haphazardly abandoned so I could play WoW WITH YOU. I'm done with laying in bed for hours in the morning trying to find a reason to get up, I'm done with staring at the forums for an hour when I do get up, because in the back of my head I don't want to log in to another pointless, boring day where I don't get to do anything I want, I'm sick of feeling like the last 8 months were a collossal waste of my life. I'm tired of looking around at the disaster the house is and giving up before I even make it over to the box of trash bags. I'm tired of waiting for that never appearing day where you remember to get your car fixed, and we can stop adding to the 228,000 miles on mine, and I'm not ok with the fact that you ignored me for 36 hours straight when I tried to tell you that all of this is NOT NORMAL, and that I need YOUR HELP to fix it. And most of all, I am NOT OK WITH YOU TELLING ME YOU'LL NEVER MAKE ME CRY LIKE THAT AGAIN, AND THEN DOING THE EXACT SAME THING TWO WEEKS LATER.
( /Sad... )
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[16 Feb 2006|12:27pm] |
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I am alive. O.o;;;;;;;
But my credit card is still expired and for some reason the mail isn't coming here. Need to call the post office.
I've been sick forever and a half and my phone doesn't work, hurray. I hate having allergies. T_T
Starting a job sometime next week, I believe, stay tuned for more info! ^-^b
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| Staying Up Late |
[27 Dec 2005|02:54am] |
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Wow. SO MUCH TO DO. Not nearly enough time to do it in.
It's kind of scary that I'm leaving tomorrow night. Er. Well, tonight I guess. This whole 4am thing is throwing me off. :X I still need to change the oil in my car, go over to storage, hunt down some dishes, repack about 15 boxes, finish washing my clothes, pack my clothes, PACK MY CAR, and sleep somewhere in all that. Depending on if Levi actually makes it into town, departure target is around 8pm. Hopefully that will put me in Kansas City around noon on Wednesday. I'd love to get my headlights aimed before I leave, but that's looking like more and more of a pipe dream. Why the hell does no one aim headlights anymore? I've called about 500 billion places, and NO ONE DOES IT.
8 more hours to stay awake. Ugh.
Must not sleep. Must be awake for an all-night drive.
AUGH.
Dad's Christmas present to me was paying to get the muffler and exhaust pipe on my car replaced. It sounds SO amazingly much better; it's really a blessing to know that I don't have to make this huge trip while listening to my car rattle.
The closer it gets to leaving time, the more nervous I get. I've never lived this far away from home before. :X Is it normal to feel cornered before you undertake a big life change? I'm not sure that I feel like it's a bad thing, but I very much feel like I'm choking, in a proverbial sense. Anxiety maybe? I dunno. I'm breathing, but I feel like somehow I'm not; like I'm waiting for someone to push me that one final step over the edge of a cliff and into the unseen water below. I know I have to do this on my own, and that no one can take this step but me, and yet somehow, I feel like I'm still 5 years old, waiting for someone who knows better than I do to come and affirm for me that my life is headed in the right direction, that yes, I can do anything I want, yes, the world is my oyster. Only problem is that no one's coming. Is this what growing up feels like?
I'm not sure I like it. It's fucking lonely, and somehow has a very undefinable finality to it. It scares the hell out of me.
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| Random Junk |
[22 Dec 2005|04:07pm] |
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Jen talked me into making a MySpace account. :X My username there is the same as it is here, but I have done exactly nothing with it yet. XD
ELITE new HNM Forum thing. OhLookItsMe on HNMLS.com. A huge pile of Kudos to Raistlin (I think he's from Diabolos) for all of his work on this site.
STILL NO HDD. T_T Sony is a bastich.
Congrats to DJ on his Herald's Gaiters, and to Jamal (I think) on his E. Body.
At least I don't think I'm missing anything this weekend, since it's Christmas and all LS activities have been cancelled.
YEAHBORINGPOSTSORRY. I'll come back and make it longer later. :X
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| Dynamis Lord |
[18 Dec 2005|06:49pm] |
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CONGRATULATIONS LOVELESS ON YOUR FIRST DYNAMIS LORD WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Also, congratulations to Trumpeter and Justarius on their Wizard's Petasos, to Agris on his Valor Surcoat, and to Phazen on the other 100 Coin that dropped. ^-^ Congratulations to Hailie on the Shadow Mantle, and to Saprykin on the Shadow Ring. Baja didn't tell me who won the 100 Coin that Dynamis Lord dropped, but congrats to whoever won that as well. ^-^
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[14 Dec 2005|10:26pm] |
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Wow, I'm 1/3 done making a list of all my books, and the related ones I want ...
This is going to take forever.
( Book List )
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[14 Dec 2005|02:39pm] |
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( Good Gaming )
So like, I got my PS2 back. In a box. From Sony.
WITHOUT THE HDD.
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'Your harddrive will be replaced, and is being shipped to you from another Sony center. We apologize for the inconvenience.'
/Cry
I am having FFXI withdrawals. Bad ones. I am trying to keep myself busy online, but there are a grand total of about 4 websites I have any continuing interest in. I am trying to keep myself busy packing. But it's very cold outside, and I'd much rather procrastinate. I am trying to keep myself busy playing DDR, but I am at a point where I believe I have finally met my match for song difficulty, and it's starting to get to me.
THANK GOD AT LEAST KINBRAE IS BACK IN TOWN, AND JEN IS ALMOST DONE WITH FINALS.
The Sony reps have not called me back yet to let me know how long it will be until my HDD gets here. SuX.
And Vil is quitting. T_T T_T T_T Soso sad. T_T T_T T_T Good luck with the rest of your life, Vil, you'll be sorely missed. :(
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| FIXING MY CAR |
[13 Dec 2005|03:09pm] |
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